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It all started with a song. A Chinese pop song about how the singer spent her birthday alone, wishing herself a happy birthday and generally feeling sad because there's no boyfriend besides her. And that song spawned a mini life-story of this girl in the office.
Apparently, she spent her 21st birthday alone and wished herself a happy birthday and generally feeling sad because her boyfriend isn't with her. She said she went out alone, watched a movie alone and ate dinner alone. Cried the whole day away as well.
So while she was telling her tale, I'm like "I spend my 21st birthday alone too but you don't see me moping". And of course, this being me and all, I didn't say that out loud.
Well, it doesn't help that my 21st birthday fell on the last day of my finals. An evening paper at that. So by the time I finished the last paper of the semester on my 21st birthday, it's already close to 7pm and by the time I get to town or somewhere brightly lit and filled with people, all the shops would be closed. And it's just too sad watching a late movie alone when everyone else is paired up, no matter what day it is. So I opted to go straight home, crack open the bottle of whiskey (Royal Salute, 21 years) which I'd asked my mom to buy earlier that year and made everyone in my house drink with me.
I guess the main difference between her 21st and my 21st is I made the conscious choice of not feeling sad. Instead of going out alone, eating alone and watching a movie alone, I go home and spend quality time with my family. They are still human, no matter what I keep telling myself... :P
I don't think it's that big a deal anyways. So what if I didn't spend my 21st birthday out partying with friends? Which reminds me of a text message I got that day by a friend. He was saying how it's so sad for me to spend my only 21st birthday at home. And I'm like, "everyone is busy and I didn't want to be a bother. Besides, it's a Wednesday, they've got work the next morning". But he went on to say how he thinks I should find someone to go out and go wild that night. I guess he had a point. I only get to celebrate my 21st birthday once but I don't think I'm wrong either.
Really, it's all in the perception.
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