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演唱:温岚
我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐
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I don't know if it's because I'm born lucky or I'm a natural optimist or even because I'm not the sympathetic type but I really am vexed by my inability to console and/or say the right things at the right time.
I'm a simple-minded person, unlike your overly complex and often elaborate plottings. I don't give much thought to what I say or do, much less try to convey some hidden message. Really, I don't. I complain for the sake of getting those negative energy off my chest. I don't just complain to you. I complain to anyone I meet along the way. I don't think less of you than any of my other friends, unlike how you keep insisting that you are. And the only thing more vexing about not being able to get what I want to say/feel/mean across is not being able to clear my name.
You do have that bad habit of pushing all those crimes up my head and forcing me into guilt trips that I really shouldn't be taking (well, maybe I should but I don't like taking guilt trips. They make me feel like I actually have a conscience). And even though I know you do what you do out of force of habit or you're trying to get some workable experimental result from me but it doesn't stop me from feeling maligned. I really don't mean any of the things you'd accused me of.
I can never win you in the battle of wits. I'm not smart enough. I'm the type who would always lose in chess or any other type of game that requires advance planning. You of all people should know that--with me being your pet project for almost 3 years now.
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I don't know if it's because I'm born lucky or I'm a natural optimist or even because I'm not the sympathetic type but I really am vexed by your inability to look on the bright side. You and my brother both.
Brother would always think that mom is picking on him, nagging at him, etc. but she does that to everyone in the house. He would always think I "don't get as much shit from her" as he does but that's not true. I just don't make it a point to feel like she is deliberately picking on me when she orders me around the house.
You would always say that you aren't as important as my other friends, that I would forget your existence if you were to stop looking me up, etc. but as I'd told you yesterday, you are probably the one who knows me best among all my friends. There are intimate things that you'd dug out of me that even my other friends "closer to me" don't know about. You of all people should know how hard it is to get me to divulge those classified information.
You would always let yourself drop down to the lowest of all lows but you ain't the only one who stumbled and fell before. I just don't make it a point to stay at the bottom of the gorge. In your own words: You ain't that special.
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I don't know if it's because I'm born lucky or I'm a natural optimist or even because I'm not the sympathetic type but I really am vexed by how much I am affected by your little monologue earlier. I don't like to be accused, much less being accused of treating you less of a friend than others. I'd always thought of myself as someone who treated her friends equally... without bias or judgement. Being accused of that is a huge deal. I know fully well that your monologue might as well have been used to set the stage for the first stage of your new experiment but I am still feeling distressed by your accusation.
...I'm ashamed of myself for feeling so strongly, so disturbed by your accusations.
I don't know how much more of your experiments I can take if you keep on accusing me of something I have no intention of doing, something I didn't even think of doing. I don't know how much psychoanalysis I can take. I don't want to always have to think about what ulterior motives you might be harboring whenever we chat. I don't need the extra pressure.
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